Women in Positions of Prestige and Power

For real.
Ok, so I'm in this elective at school, "Leadership in Pharmacy Practice". I picked this elective because as someone who is thinking of having her own pharmacy, or traveling within the profession, doing research, implementing policy, well-leadership could be useful. Plus, I figured I'd interact with more people in other classes, and work alongside people I don't typically work with. All around, a pretty good idea.

In this elective, we are going to work on a project with a leader in pharmacy in our area. Five local leaders have offered to help us out, including the Director of Pharmacy operations for Wegmans, Director of Pharmacy at URMC, Head of Pharmacy at Excellus BCBS, An owner of 8 local independent pharmacies, and the Dean of our school. They were very interesting Men. Men. Not a single woman. Why? Well, my guess is there just aren't a lot of women leading the profession in my area. This is simply driving me bonkers.
Bonkers.
I mean I knew they were all guys. We knew their names. They're big names around town. It wasn't really a surprise. I guess. But it didn't really sink in.

Lately this has been catching me a lot. It's not to say that women don't have positions of power, prestige, and great influence. They do. And it's not a hidden fact that even now men make more than women in a given profession, given the same experience, and same position.

Maybe I just hoped that it would change? Evolve?

Maybe women just don't want it? Maybe we have the opportunities, and just don't take them?

I've never really been excited about power. Or money. Or fame. Actually, all three kind of turn me off a bit, people get caught up in these ideas, and neglect the simple things. That's gross. Maybe this reflection is just me getting too caught up in it?

But it really, really, upset me. Maybe this is irrational. Likely. I'm not known for being rational.

I want to see women doing more. I want to see us grow into this role of equality that we allegedly have. I'm not convinced we have it. I'm not convinced that I personally need it. I'm just having one of those moments, I guess, where I feel like if I don't step up and ask for it no one will. It's like sitting in class, and the teacher is looking for participation. Everyone is doodling, or sleeping, or staring into space. And they are just waiting for someone to offer something. Anything. And I always end up giving in, and offering some lame excuse for an answer. Because the struggle is too much, simple as it is, for me to watch.

Maybe I have to step up and start. I mean, I do a lot. But maybe I need to be more loud about it. Gosh loud women really can drive me nuts. But I don't want my daughters to wish that the women before them did more. And, well, that would be me.

Can I have an impact without having wealth, power, and fame, in the sense that those terms are well known? I feel I set a pretty decent example. Up until now I have been focused on the small picture, the day to day, the family, the community. Can I broaden my focus, and reach out to the mid sized or even big picture, without neglecting what matters to be in my small town, my small home? Is that what has held women back? Or am I missing something else all together? Could be.

Ugh. I dunno. Maybe it's that I can see the light at the end of the school hallway. That things are on the right track at home, that I am being involved, and contributing. I have found my creative outlets, my hobbies, and been able to devote at least some time to all of this while in school. Maybe it's that I need to get the wheels turning on my next venture. Maybe it's that speculating about the big picture is a really good distraction.

Meh?