Blog, revisited...

Went to comment on a blog tonight, and realized that once upon a time, I had a blogger account...Turns out I still do. The last two years have been a wild ride...and have gone by absurdly fast. Hard to believe I've been done with school for a year, married for 12, and found my pharmacy home. Overall, not much has changed...House still needs work, kids are still awesome...Now the hubster is in school, I'm finding my hobbies again, and it's that time of year where WNY weather is simply beautiful. I imagine that the next few weeks might bring blogs on work, travel, family, weather, half marathons, village parks, and other randoms. Then again, like the last two years, I might just take a backseat to the blogosphere and hang out. Either way, hugs, smiles, and enjoy the summer months :)

Camera found AND computer fixed!

Well, I should be getting some SERIOUS homework done, I'm giving a presentation Weds and I have, um, the title slide finished...but, earlier a lil bird told me about this AWESOME blog hop idea, and I was like, Oh, blog! It's been a while! So, in a nutshell, the last few weeks...camera found, then computer crashed, best friend had baby FAR away, a couple presentations, a few exams, more teeth for the babe, volunteer work, work work, and plotting a secret (from the kiddo) road trip!

Phew. Well, working on the getting pictures up annnnd maybe thinking of joining the latest hop by Megandvd@BeautyintheAttempt :)

O camera, where art thou?

So, I took pics of the things I accomplished while out with "appendajerk" and I can't find my camera. I also can't find my energy to look for it, and it's a really long boring post without pictures, but I feel like I need to blog, so I'm going to share with you something VERY exciting that my husband just sent to me...

Preface: I get to pick out whatever vehicle I want when I'm done with school. Unfortunately I'm a car girl and have a list a mile long of what I'd love. Keeping my focus on something "new" I've narrowed it down to 2 main players, that is, until now....

OH MY GOODNESS! Now, my quest for a Vdub bus was squashed for a while. Husby, a mechanic, refuses to touch the things, but a little bit ago I found that a friend of a friend fixes them up for fun. They also have a track record of things like, oh, ya know, bursting into flames and breaking down, making it a little unappealing since I need to be on time every once and a while, at least for the foreseeable future (Boo). But then, Husby sends me this link! FINALLY! I mean they remade the bug HOW long ago now? And, 186.4 on a single battery charge? Holy dang. Yes, Yes, I DO realize that it is just a concept at the Geneva Auto Show, but fingers crossed, it will be mine. I could fit more than 4 people in it tooo, ya know, just in case...

In the meantime...My two top picks of things to get new are...

The mini countryman!

We picked up a mini clubman for my mom last year to settle our debt with my parents from the $ they helped us with to buy the house and make things happen with me in school. Love that car. Was thinking, it's be AWESOME if it had all wheel drive and heated seats, two of my fav features in my 1997 subaru princess wagon. And there ya go, they made it. It's ADORABLE. The last time we had to take the mini in for some warranty work, I was like...what is THAT?! The only downside I can think of is that it's, well, small. It's got 4 bucket seats, cool for road trip, but uncool if we have 5 people that want to go somewhere. Or 5 people in the family (maybe? someday?). Although, we always seem to have something else to drive...

My other top pick is the subaru legacy GT. It's like the grownup version of Husby's WRX, and mighty good looking. I'm so-so-sooooo sold on subarus. Just last week we had a foot of snow fall by the time I got in from school, and I had no probs getting in the driveway. Plus side: Husby will work on subarus, gladly. It also looks really harmless, won't draw attention. Downside, not as good on gas as the mini, not electric. More pricey than the mini too, even if I design my own mini. Waiting for suby to get on the hybrid bandwagon. If they jump on the bandwagon before VW decides to move the van to production...Well, we'll see!

Well, I hope you enjoy my car post in lieu of pictures of the results of my unexpected low key days off :)

Adios Appendix!

Well, it's been a whirlwind couple of weeks around here, to say the least...I survived round two of exams and presentation nonsense...well, almost...Let's start with Valentines day. Have I mentioned how much I hate Valentines day? It wasn't bad tho. Husby suggested takeout BBQ dinner at home via candelight (with the Munchkins too, of course) which was probably the best idea yet. Since I have school by our fave BBQ joint I offered to grab it on the way home. Yum! He had his usual pile of ribs, and I tried something new, these crab cakes coated in pulled pork...Seriously. I kid you not. Now, I have been phasing meat and meat products out of my diet gradually, so I expected the tummy ache that ensued Monday evening. And I kind of expected it to linger into Tuesday, I mean, deep friend and pulled pork, I earned it. But come Wednesday it was like I was being stabbed in the gut over and over again, and I only made it 2 hours into my 11 hour day at work when the boss started calling the local urgent care offices to see who had what imaging equipment to figure out what meanness was attacking my insides.
Using Colleen and Lisa's differential diagnosis, we narrowed my RLQ pain down to ovarian cysts, appendicitis, or diverticulitis, I just needed someone to take pictures of my guts and tell me which one it was. No luck finding Urgent care though, so I had to suck up the copay and visit the local ER.
It was interesting. I sat there for a few hours being poked and prodded (OW) and then drank some contrast dye mixed with crystal lite that I was told would give me diarrhea. Yay. CT scan was inconclusive (and boy is that gonna cost me) and by the time the surgeon got there Jon had arrived. We opted to take the diagnosis of possible cysts since my WBC wasn't elevated and although I had about no appetite I wasn't nauseas or vomiting. They offered to keep me for observation, or take out the lil guy for kicks, but I had a big test on Thursday (covering intraabdominal infections, mind you, Irony!) and a presentation to give on Friday that I hadn't quite finished yet. My super nice awesome nurse was busy when it was time for me to go, so this other nurse tossed a bunch of papers at me including a prescription for half the NSAIDs I currently take, confused the hell out of me, and lead me to tears of frustration. Supernicenurse came back and apoligized, and I just hoped that I would never have to see any of them again.
Well, I was up a couple times during the night with the stabbing pain, which was worse despite my pile-o-pain pills (not the 400mg Ibu the ER doc offered me though, something about duplicate therapy he didn't seem to understand...)and driving to school Thursday AM was not a pleasant time. Not to mention the after effects of all that crap they made me drink for the imaging, I was a peach, for sure. I spent a good chunk of time on the phone trying to get a hold of my PCP at the VA to get in for an ultrasound to confirm the cyst hypothesis, or obtain some sort of referral to not have to pay thousands if I had to go back to the ER....To find out my PCP was leaving the clinic and they could get me in in MAY. MAY. MAY! I requested to leave a message for a nurse or ANYONE but since they didn't have me reassigned they didn't have anyone to direct my message to. Lovely. They ended up finding a cancellation in someone's day for next Wednesday, so I took that for the time being, and hoped the pain would go away.
I made it through my test. Not excited to see the grades on that one, a two hour exam and I left in about 40 minutes because I was pretty sure my guts were going to grace the classroom walls one way or another. Texted husby to meet me at home and take me back to the hospital. Once I was back in the ER with not-so-nice nurse taking care of me (luckily I felt to crappy to care) they did bloodwork and my WBC was elevated. They opted to inspect my appendix situation laproscopically, and told me they'd take it out either way, and got me ready for surgery.
So here it is, Saturday night, and I'm working on this recovery nonsense. It went really well, and although I'm super sore I no longer have this stabbing pain in my RLQ.
I just caught up on emailing all my professors to make up my work from Friday and for Monday and Tuesday, so that I could take it easy a couple days. Since my back is already in bad shape, this whole having my stomach muscles cut into thing isn't the best ever. I'll tell you what is the best ever though, my husby for attempting to take care of me, my folks for bringing me flowers, my friends for entertaining me and making us all dinner, and all the people sending warm get better fuzzies my way. Who knows, maybe I can get some lazy projects done the next couple days? Maybe?
:)

Time out Tuesday...

So, I was getting some things done before classes yesterday, and I found out that the class I had an exam in today was NOT a pass/fail class. Ooops. I suppose that was likely indicated on the syllabus, but...I guess I missed that. Yesterday was jam packed, by 10am I had already spent quality time at the gym, got the kids up and dressed, finished my homework for the afternoon, and killed some time...After school was filled up too, volunteering with my oldest at Noogieland back in the city till 8...Meaning I had to go in and out of the city twice before I could finally wind down. Monday was manic indeed, but enjoyable, despite taking a small amount of anxiety to bed with me since studying for this exam clearly was out of range...

That being said, I rocked it. For sure. Granted, it was all on that common sense stuff, that (frighteningly) other pharmacy students sometimes have a LOT of trouble with. I had an advantage I guess in that I have kids that I had to feed and take care of and it was a self care exam...But for all the times having a family doesn't make the pharm student life easier, I think I had one freebie coming my way :)

Anyways. I was about to start working on my umpteen school things for the week, osteomyelitis case, fundraiser flyers, journal club, presentation....And I thought I'd take a time out. I busted out my camera and took the before shots for my projects-in-progress...

So...Here (hopefully) you can see the blue cord that will be a new bag, on top of the canvas where Auburn and I have sketched out our drawing (a big leafy tree and tons of flowers) an old magazine, an olive container I rescued from the recycletruckmonster after the last fridge clean (some label still attached...) and my bff modgepodge.

With both kids entertained, and husby soldering in the hallway, I figured I'd take my time out one step further and have some craft time. I decided that I wanted my pencil holder, formerly known as olive jar, to be coated in various shades of wine since it will be in my dining room, with a burgundy ceiling and purple walls, and wine in general makes me smile...So I selected my ratty-est wine-o mag and went to town cutting out slices of pinot and merlot. Before grabbing my scissors, I soaked the jar in a bucket of hot water with a lil Mrs. Meyers (goo gone scares me a little, and to be honest, it requires too much one-on-one) so the label and residual sticky would slip right off. Chopped out the shades of wine, and rescued my jar, ready to go! I was so impressed with it's shiny-ness, I took a picture of that too...

Ok. So the glare from my camera, and the photo quality don't do this shiny piece of rescued glass justice, I'm going for the *thought* that counts. I was super pleased. I promptly coated it with shades of wine and heaps of modgepodge, and once it dries and I find some snappy ribbon for the top, I'll post a pic of that too :)

Well, I suppose this case study isn't going to do itself, and considering I took another time out to blog this today (apparently my blog doesn't write itself either...) I'd better get to it.

Happy Tuesday all :)

Dear Friday, I love you.

We should do this more often.

But really.

Don't get me wrong, it's been a crazy day, and it's not even noon. This weekend is basically a marathon, working, superbowling, and studying (apparently I have another test and presentation due next week...)

Either way, I'm glad it's Friday. It's dress down day, even! I swear, class is a LOT less painful in a hoodie and jeans.

This weekend, I have some ambitious projects to finish up. OK, maybe not that ambitious. Last weekend I spent some time prioritizing and collecting supplies for my projects. I decided my needs were..
1. A pencil holder: My desk, which I LOVE is getting super beat up. I think having writing utensils in an accessible (and adorable) place will help save wear and tear on my top drawer, which has developed a squeak. Of course, this is a process, I'll have to clean out and organize the drawers, the top of desk chaos, soap the drawers so they don't squeak, then cute-en it up and plant it on the clean desk....
2. New Art: Now that my living room is (almost) painted, I think it's time for a wall wear upgrade. Bought some canvases and decided it's time to use up the random paints to make some wall art happen.
3. New bag: I could always use a new bag. Goal, is have it done by spring break. Got some clearance corduroy (I wanted enough of one fabric to make the most of it, and my fabric bins are currently being held hostage in a hostile environment), this weekend I'll draw the pattern.

I know, it's a little silly to have 3 concurrent projects. During last week's blog hop, I saw so many adorable posts, with before and after pics, processes, etc. Loved it. But realistically, I just don't have the space, patients, or chunk of time to get things done in a process fashion, at least, yet. (Hobby room IS on the horizon!) So, I'm starting 3 small but needed projects now, so when I want to work on something I can pick up whatever works for the space and time I have.

So, happy weekend all :) And I'll update this with pics when I get home, to at least show the "before" shots...

Monday, Monday...

I only have 11 more Mondays left in pharmacy school! Only 11 more times will I walk down the halls wishing my friends a Happy Monday! Unfortunately, there are 13 more Tuesdays left, and this semester, Tuesday has been WAY more painful than Monday...

And today, I'm super excited. Saturday I got a call from a friend that she won me a ticket to a concert that I REALLY wanted to go to, tonight. I never got my ticket because almost as soon as I wrote the date down on my calendar my exam schedule came out, and I have a test, tomorrow. I couldn't find a concert date (Monday night late night sitters are hard to come by, and Husby has to work at the crack of dawn, so that was out) and didn't want to wander the streets alone in the cold OR loose my car in the city in the dark and the cold all alone...Most of my friends that are fans live no where near here anymore, or also weren't willing to go out on a Monday night. And, to be honest, I'm probably too old to pull that sort of thing off anyways...So, I had pretty much decided it wasn't going to happen...Until...My friend won tickets and HAS to go with me cause it's one of those tickets you have to be on a list for. I'm so excited!

The real test though, will be if I can stay awake the whole show. Lil one was up till 11, then up again from 3ish to 5ish...And I'm mid 3 hour lecture in a class with the shades drawn....

In other news, I have had a very productive Monday so far! I scheduled the dog to get his hair and nails done (I'm a little jealous, gotta admit! Although I'm rocking some new polish today :oD), printed the weeks notes, finished a study guide, and applied a few more "gentle" suggestions to this here blog.

Blogging with pictures...

I've been trying to apply all the lovely feedback I've been getting from the blog hop! It is pretty boring around here without pictures, and that's something I've enjoyed most of the blogs I've checked out with the hop...I have close to a billion pictures on our desktop, but for whatever reason I can't get blogger to properly load on there...So I emailed a couple to myself, and in this post I'm going mess around with the photos...and see how it looks!

Someone LOVES having her picture taken...

Waiting patiently to go play in the snow...Again...

So...Did it work? I also made the layout wider. At least I think. I had it set up for two rows of stuff on the right hand side, but I only actually have one row of stuff...Keep the feedback coming, so helpful!

Blog Hop Linky?

Did it work?

Since I'm changing it up anyways...Why not get some feedback?

First. Ever. Blog hop! Pending I can at least figure out how to connect after writing my "blurb"! I guess there's no time like the present to open up for feedback. The problem is, I don't know how to do a lot of the stuff, like add new pages, and pictures, and fancies yet! But, It'd be nice to get some direction for when I have the skills and the time...gentle direction, that is :)

I am so excited to be part of a very unique blog hop. Gail @My Repurposed Life and MeganDVD @ Beauty in the Attempt are hosting “The Bold and the Beautiful-your blog reviewed”.

Please take a look around my blog, check out the layout, pages, buttons, sidebar and gadgets. I would love for you to gently critique my blog. I’m hoping you will leave me some positive feedback about my blog. It would be great if you could give me constructive criticism but be sure to tell me what you like about my blog too! Do you like my pictures? Does my blog load quickly for you? How about the font? All tips and tidbits welcome!

Redesigning...Or at least ready to make more than just a feeble effort....

After spending a chunk of the evening making a study guide for my management class (I think I'm the only one in pharm school that doesn't loathe the liberal artsy parts of the ciriculum...) I thought I'd to see if it was any easier to try to edit my blog layout on my laptop vs. the desktop. I gave it a try earlier but couldn't manage to change the colors, and it was rather drab. More than an hour later...I found a background and a color combo I don't hate...Although it still needs some work. I could spend hours tweaking the colors alone, but just because I like them doesn't mean that other people can stand to look at it...I'm not happy with the huge chunk of empty space next to the picture (one of about ten shots that are on my laptop...) but it'll work for now. It's not quite as painful to look at, and I think I might actually be ready to share it with more than my 6 followers, and take feedback now that I have the motivation to make my blog suck less.

Not just lazy at blogging....

I took a sick day from school today. Not only did I not feel like walking from the park-n-ride to class with the -temps, but my Aubs wasn't feeling up to par yet, so I kept her home. Mandatory attendance in pharmacy school is gonna have to deal.

Over the weekend I decided to FINALLY finish painting the living room. I started, oh, several months ago at a minimum, painted one corner, and stopped. Wasn't sure I was willing to commit to a neutral shade (Spice delight, a slightly cozier antique white...) in the living room, and wanted to reflect on my choice....My shade reflection turned into academic chaos and laziness...And as I was thinking about painting the bathroom, I was reminded that I still had 7/8ths of a room to complete...

I think I like it.

I'm not saying that I'm going to paint the rest of the house in shades of "meh", but for the living room, it works. Looks stellar with the trim, windows, and our mismatched hand-me-down couch set.

Random, but I thought I'd share.

Constantly Inspired, but just...welll...Lazy

I guess it's time for my quarterly blog post....I'd really like to say, I admire the women I know that can keep up with blogging...Wow...I just...well...can't seem to make it a habit...

So, almost done with another semester of Pharm school! Yay! After tomorrow I will be DONE with pharmacology! One more semester, then it's on to rotations, where my learning can begin....

I'm really excited about my rotations. I've been nervous about getting sites that were over 100 miles away, or really not of my interest, since, well, P1 year. I think that my selection went just fine. The way my school does rotations is weird. We end up with way more than the required number of hours, and although it IS more work, at least it's the sort of work I can learn from. I am fortunate enough to have scored rotations that each satisfy some sort of selfish desire of mine but will also give me a challenge and a really well rounded experience, which is good, cause I've been bored out of my miiiind...

Working has helped a little, I say a little, cause there's really not much happening at my pharmacy in the evenings, just seemingly longer hold times for the occasional ins company call, and housekeeping duties, not really much to challenge my inner pharmacist. I'm excited to be working a couple day shifts over break, and to be able to work during the summer, since I got block 1 off of APPEs. Hopefully this will give me enough intern hours to take part 3 of my boards early, one less thing to worry about...

I've been keeping up my motivation by doing some research, mainly trying to find that perfect residency. I think I finally may have. I am still 100% torn, at this point it is so tempting to just take my job and move on with working, but at the same time I still feel like I want just a little more education, perspective, experience. Maybe APPEs will help me get over it...

Anyways, just making sure my blog doesn't get deleted. Who knows, maybe I will have some time to keep this up over break? It hasn't worked yet...but, maybe?

Women in Positions of Prestige and Power

For real.
Ok, so I'm in this elective at school, "Leadership in Pharmacy Practice". I picked this elective because as someone who is thinking of having her own pharmacy, or traveling within the profession, doing research, implementing policy, well-leadership could be useful. Plus, I figured I'd interact with more people in other classes, and work alongside people I don't typically work with. All around, a pretty good idea.

In this elective, we are going to work on a project with a leader in pharmacy in our area. Five local leaders have offered to help us out, including the Director of Pharmacy operations for Wegmans, Director of Pharmacy at URMC, Head of Pharmacy at Excellus BCBS, An owner of 8 local independent pharmacies, and the Dean of our school. They were very interesting Men. Men. Not a single woman. Why? Well, my guess is there just aren't a lot of women leading the profession in my area. This is simply driving me bonkers.
Bonkers.
I mean I knew they were all guys. We knew their names. They're big names around town. It wasn't really a surprise. I guess. But it didn't really sink in.

Lately this has been catching me a lot. It's not to say that women don't have positions of power, prestige, and great influence. They do. And it's not a hidden fact that even now men make more than women in a given profession, given the same experience, and same position.

Maybe I just hoped that it would change? Evolve?

Maybe women just don't want it? Maybe we have the opportunities, and just don't take them?

I've never really been excited about power. Or money. Or fame. Actually, all three kind of turn me off a bit, people get caught up in these ideas, and neglect the simple things. That's gross. Maybe this reflection is just me getting too caught up in it?

But it really, really, upset me. Maybe this is irrational. Likely. I'm not known for being rational.

I want to see women doing more. I want to see us grow into this role of equality that we allegedly have. I'm not convinced we have it. I'm not convinced that I personally need it. I'm just having one of those moments, I guess, where I feel like if I don't step up and ask for it no one will. It's like sitting in class, and the teacher is looking for participation. Everyone is doodling, or sleeping, or staring into space. And they are just waiting for someone to offer something. Anything. And I always end up giving in, and offering some lame excuse for an answer. Because the struggle is too much, simple as it is, for me to watch.

Maybe I have to step up and start. I mean, I do a lot. But maybe I need to be more loud about it. Gosh loud women really can drive me nuts. But I don't want my daughters to wish that the women before them did more. And, well, that would be me.

Can I have an impact without having wealth, power, and fame, in the sense that those terms are well known? I feel I set a pretty decent example. Up until now I have been focused on the small picture, the day to day, the family, the community. Can I broaden my focus, and reach out to the mid sized or even big picture, without neglecting what matters to be in my small town, my small home? Is that what has held women back? Or am I missing something else all together? Could be.

Ugh. I dunno. Maybe it's that I can see the light at the end of the school hallway. That things are on the right track at home, that I am being involved, and contributing. I have found my creative outlets, my hobbies, and been able to devote at least some time to all of this while in school. Maybe it's that I need to get the wheels turning on my next venture. Maybe it's that speculating about the big picture is a really good distraction.

Meh?

Am I really still in class?

This class is painful. That is all.

W-w-where'd September go?

So, it's September 25th! What! I have NO IDEA where this month has gone. For reals.
No doubt about it...School's in full swing. SOAP notes underway, Pro-con debate is done (Oh yeah team awesome! Link to commentary on debate at Ginger's blog (http://gingerforhealthbenefits.blogspot.com/) exciting things happening in virtually all my friend's lives..babies, houses, new jobs, phew. For us, new dog (Bender, above), new old cars, and, it's fall.

So busy yes, happy yes, excited about the rest of fall, mega yes. Pumped that this is the last year in classrooms toomanyhoursaweek? Ultra mega yes.

Still on the tiny house hunt, and spreading tiny house fever. Looked at a few campers in the last month or so, but going with the idea of re-vamping an old pop up starting in the spring. I've been encouraged to find some folks that have pulled off the tiny house thing with kids and whatnot, although I think we are pretty content just using it for road trips and visits, rather than a whole lifestyle change. I read an interesting blog about the ethics of raising kids in a tiny house, and I really don't think that I can rule out the idea of having more kids in our future, or comprimising their need for space just because I think that tiny houses are so cool. Going with about 100 sq ft per person, were already looking at a not so tiny place for permanent living, not to mention the three dogs!

Still trying to figure out how to get my own pharmacy after graduating without winning the freapin lotto. A couple of weeks ago my bestie mentioned a program that they have in the UK where you can get an ancestry visa if you have a job over there for 2 years. Lately I have been thinking on that a lot, as opposed to a residency. It seems both more interesting and less selfish, although I wonder about finding a job in another country...It's not like Americans are the most impressive bunch, lets be honest, and that is pretty much the link of it all. It really seems like something I will devote some time looking into. I'm still not sure if moving to another country for a year or two is less selfish than moving to another state for a year, but it would be more of a job and less of an academic endeavor, and what an experience. It would be great to learn about pharmacy in another part of the world where practice is different. Just another thing to think about, I suppose.

The house is doing OK. I've been more motivated than ever to cut down on my stuff collections, although I still really like my stuff. I've found that it's easier to get rid of stuff when I can replace 5 or 6 things with one thing that I like a whole lot. Having my friend move in on work-trade was a good idea, she's been able to clean things that I haven't ever cleaned here, like the areas around the kitchen cupboard handles, and my kitchen floor is almost not ugly. Laundry is always done, so are the dishes. Granted, if we lived on multiple floors here this specific part of the house might not always be such a messss, but it might loose some of the cozy factor.

Well, there's an update. I've been thinking a lot, so it's likely that my blog posts will be a little more frequent in the weeks to come. I think I say that every time tho.


Hugs!

Pictures!

After posting one boring reflective post, and one uber cranky soapboxy post, I thought I would post some pics of things that make me absurdly happy.

Family, smiles, cute kids.



Oldtimey works in progress. Family heirlooms. Making old things work again.


Trees. Maine. Good times with good friends.



Hugs All.

ANOTHER oil rig blast? For reals?

What!

No, really? I mean, isn't the last one still causing issues? And the one before that? What part of maybe this isn't a good idea and we need a new solution isn't clear? If little overwhelmed me can get it....I just...I just don't understand...

Just saying. I can handle my own personal quarter-life crisis, but this is getting out of hand. No. Wait. This has BEEN out of hand.

Are we ready to resolve this as a group yet? Cause I'm getting sick of this. I'm already sick of a lot of things happening in the news lately. I try to keep it at bay, off of the FB, out of the twitter feed. But for freaking reals, already.

Health care crisis? Poverty out of hand. World hunger. Poorly distributed resources, worldwide. Racism? Islamophobia? Sexism? But keep infringing on religious freedom? Oil everywhere?

I am pretty dramatic, I know, but isn't it about time we start really making the effort here? I have been trying, in my own, small, ways. I am incorporating small changes, to work on all these things, in my community. I'm receptive to feedback. I can do more. But I can't do it all.

Something about lots of little changes going a long way? How many people are there in NY? In the US? How many people aren't making their tiny changes? Are here just for the party? Ugh.

Anyways. See ya later soapbox. Just had to get that off my chest.

Blogging thru my quarter life crisis...

So, I decided on my way home today that I am, actually, having my quarter life crisis. That's right, I plan to live to 108. Or I'm a late bloomer. Or both. :) I thought I bypassed it, we did so much so early, the marriage, the kids, the house, the school choices...But after going back to school last week and really having the hardest time EVER with it, I've decided that must be it. It's not just school, it's a lot of things, adding up.

It's not that I am having regrets, or feel like my life is not going as planned. I'm not unhappy or unsatisfied. Maybe I am just incredibly bored with the day to day of getting up and going to school. This is my 5th year, in a row, of being back in school; Aside from maintaining relationships I do very little for 5 consecutive years. I am bored out of my mind. Routine is just not really my thing, I guess.

I blogged a bit, over the summer. I committed myself to blogging more often, and I did, I just didn't post them all on here. When I went back to do upload them, they were lame or out of date or both.

I still want to be a pharmacist, I just have lost all momentum and desire to go to school. Jon suggested senior-itis, maybe that's it. It is my last year in classes. It's not too challenging academically.

I'm really struggling with how I will practice pharmacy in the long run. I love my job, but I think it's largely because I love where I work, I like being in the community, I like the flexibility, I like working long days and less of them. I don't know if I'd be as satisfied working somewhere else. It's hard to say.

I still love my house, I have about 2 billion things I want to do here. I also want a tiny house, I want to travel.

I think part of it is I'm overdue to leave the states for a bit. My passport expired, and I'm trying to make that make me travel in country more. Thinking of CA in December, for the ASHP conference. Which brings me to residency choices, and limits our family vacation options. Pfff. Maybe it's fitting that I feel I'm having a bit of a crisis. I might as well accept it and try to do something with it, right?

So...I guess that's where I am...

I just got a great idea!

So Jon's folks have one of those old beat up pop up campers that's been closed for a decade....Tiny house? I think so-oooo.

Seriously, I am obsessed. I can't even count the number of times I've picked up magazines or read articles on these small homes. I'm obsessed with storage. Not very good at it, I must admit. But my house is also gigantic. I really am considering applying this tiny house theory to my gigantic house. I mean it's not really that bad when you consider 3 families live here. It's not wasted space. Once I can get the funds together to make the improvements to make it efficient it will make more sense.

I sent Jon a text to ask if we could make a tiny house out of the camper. He didn't respond, yet. Either way it's something fun for me to think about :)